My last blog I discussed how as a diabetic I struggled a bit with my diet and how my meal schedule was altered during this pandemic. Today I want to talk more about anxiety you may feel during this difficult time. There are so many facets of of lives that are uncertain now. I’d like to break them down one by one.
Number one would be job security. I work for a small business and the fear of losing my job and permanent closure can give you many sleepless nights. You worry about paying your bills, especially your health insurance premium. Good insurance is essential to a diabetic. Hospital stays, medication, and normal doctors visits are crucial to keeping you healthy. The way I cope with this is my guitar playing and music. Both of these outlets relieve stress. Find an outlet that will take your mind off your troubles. There are no guarantees that you won’t lose your job, so another good thing to do would be open to other employment opportunities if you do lose your job. I’d like to find a job someday helping diabetics and amputees. I always try to think ahead as of late. After what I went through I would like to live a full life of happiness and success.
The second fear I always have in the back of my mind is losing a foot or limb. It’s unpleasant, but I always have to prepare myself . I’m not trying to bring anyone down with this subject, but to try to keep in mind how important it is to stick to your diet and to take care of your feet. The world is so different now with this pandemic and you have to ask yourself what you would do if you lost a limb or foot. How would this change your life? Where would you live? Could you afford a heath assistant to live with you? These questions I ask myself more often lately due to the pandemic. I always remember what my foot doctor told me when I was in the hospital waiting for my first operation. He told me if I went back to my bad eating habits and lifestyle I’d be dead in a few months. It scared me, but in a good way. I’ve kept my A1C low and have taken care of my feet. When I think about the alternatives , it’s like a nightmare. The extra time off I’ve had during this pandemic left me thinking about the good and the bad. I guess I try to look for the positives as much as I can. Basically what I’m saying is to not dwell on a bad outcome and just do the best you can.
The final fear I have would be losing my site. I ask myself the same three questions as above How would your life change, where would I live and could I afford a live in health assistant. I’ve seen so many people of all ages at my eye doctors who have lost vision in one eye or both eyes due to diabetes. That’s why it’s important to keep your A1C low and don’t cheat too often with your diet. I’ll admit I’ve checked out assistant living for the blind online, just in case. It’s not something I think about everyday, but every once in a while. I’ve done well so far, and I just keep doing the best I can.
In closing I hope that I didn’t sound like a downer or anything. I just wanted to share some emotions and fears I have sometimes. I see life these days very black and white. I hope I have a long healthy life and I wish the same for you.
My next blog I will discuss how certain foods affect my sugar numbers and what types of foods are good for your numbers. Stay healthy and safe.